With friends like these...

So, before Jeremy left, his friends hung around all the time, but now that he's gone, seems like they are too. No one talks to me anymore, and I wouldn't mind if I knew why. My usual friends still talk to me, but all of Jeremy's friends that kept saying, "I'll hang out after he leaves..." "If you ever need anything..." Are now nowhere to be found. It was like they all held a meeting and decided to act like I don't exist anymore. It really hurts because I enjoyed their company when we'd all hang out together. Maybe I'm taking it too personally, but it's hard not to. I'm not prepared for this being alone business, but it's too late, not like I can call and be like, "Hey, Army? Yeah, send my husband home, I'm tired of crying alone at night." I wish it was that simple. I can write him letter after letter, but I can't transcribe every feeling successfully. I'm an excellent writer, but when my emotions over take me, I babble (Can't you tell?). I'm just venting, I'm extremely frustrated and upset. My husband is gone, and I'm sad, not for obvious reasons, not because he's my husband, not because he's Jack's father, but because he's my best friend. He's the one who knows me better than anyone else. Without him around, I feel empty. I hope with time this feeling subsides. I think it's best if I get back to my art. Please let that be enough to help...