I can't wait until November. I can't wait for Jeremy to finally come home. I can't really handle this being alone thing much longer. I miss having him around to help raise Jack. I miss having him around to walk the dog. I miss having him around to fight with. I hope when he come's back, he's the same person, only better. I don't want him to look at me and be like, "Civilian..." I want him to look at me and be glad that he's married to me. I never want a divorce, I never want to be without him. When he gets back, I hope he changes his MOS to something safer than infantry. His mom told me "Oh he's probably going to get out and go right to Iraq..." She's not the smartest person in the world, so I just shrugged it off. It got me wondering though. What happens if he gets deployed? I'm getting ahead of myself, he's not even out of basic yet! I just need November to get here already, so I can stop writing letters and start talking face to face again. I want everything to be okay when he gets back. I'm tired of the arguing, and the tears, and both of our feelings being hurt. I know when he comes back things will different, and hopefully better. I sent him a package of letters and pictures, and a pillowcase soaked in my perfume. I hope it helps him to get along.